One morning I woke up to a song that I believe almost everyone knows. The song was “Lean on Me” Some of these lyrics are: “Lean on me when you’re not strong. I will be your friend. I will help you continue.
That same morning, a friend sent me a message with this comment, “God guides us on our way of life. We rely heavily on him.
One of the definitions of lean is relying on support or inspiration. Throwing his weight to one side to support/lean on me as we walk.
Later in the week I read this on face book. “The pastor of a small church would occasionally call a gentleman to pray, and every time that particular guy prayed, he ended with the strangest statement, “And, O Lord, lean us on our bowed side.
Finally, the pastor took him aside and said: “I like the way you pray, but I don’t understand your final little sentence. What are you talking about – support us from our leaning side? » He has answered, “Well, pastor, I’m a farmer. I live on the farm and, you know, I live in the country. I have an old barn, and it’s been there a long time. He’s been through a lot of weather, a lot of storms, and a lot of bugs have eaten at him.
He said: “I started looking at it one day while driving my tractor and noticed it was leaning to one side. So I thought to myself, oh my God! The barn is leaning, and it’s only a matter of time before it all comes crashing down.
He continued, “So you know what I did?” I went and got some pine beams and wedged it on its slanted side. He said: “He always leans, and probably always will. But I wedged it on its bent side. And he’s not going to fall because I propped him up on his bent side. And I started thinking about it.
When I was on the tractor, pastor, and driving through the field, I thought of the kind of year that I’ve had, and some of the storms that I’ve been through, and some of the people that bother me, and eat away at my joy and eat away at my spirit. And I got to thinking, you know, I’m still here! I’m still standing after everything I’ve been through. Storms and howling winds – they couldn’t knock me down. I am still standing by the grace of God.
He concluded, “From time to time, I catch myself leaning over. Leaning towards my old desires, leaning towards anger, leaning towards bitterness or hatred towards people who bother me, or leaning towards returning to the old ways and the old life I had. And when I feel myself starting to lean towards this trend, I just remember this old barn, and I pray out loud – “Lord, thank you for supporting me on the leaning side.
Years ago, I was going through a very difficult time. I dreamed of me standing on a rock during a storm. The wind was blowing so hard with the rain. There was no way I could have survived this storm, but God was supporting me with His grace and mercy.
In II Samuel 22:2-4, David says, “The Lord is my rock [of escape from Saul] and my fortress [in the wilderness] and my Liberator;
My God, my Rock, in Him I will take refuge; my shield and the horn of my salvation; my Fortress and my Refuge, my Saviour, You save me from violence.
I Samuel 2:2 says, “I call on the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies. There is no Saint like the Lord, there is none besides You; there is no Rock like our God.
The question is: what storms do you have or are you encountering? What or who are you leaning on? Are you clinging to the past and leaning into your old desires? Maybe you are going through a divorce or are divorced and feel like your life is over.
Years ago, I went through a devastating divorce. At that time, I only knew God as the God of the Bible…not my loving Father. I didn’t know who He was in me and through me or who I was in Him. I knew all the do’s and don’ts of Christianity and believe me, I was always afraid that God would be mad at me. God came into my life when I nearly killed myself and showed me how much he loved me.
At the beginning of the separation, my first reaction was shock. Then I tried to be witty and pretend the problem didn’t exist. As the days turned into weeks, my emotions began to control me. My weight dropped rapidly. I felt loneliness, jealousy towards other women, hatred towards my husband and self-pity and anger towards God. Satan started throwing poison darts into my mind. I woke up at night and tried to figure out why, how and what I had done wrong. Gradually, I started having suicidal thoughts. I was filled with guilt and shame and had Christian friends like Job who helped burden me with guilt and condemnation. I feared that my life was over and would never change. I couldn’t see my way through the dark cloud that hung above me. I felt the shame of going through a divorce as a Christian and saw myself as a failure. I was rejected by my husband and some friends. A woman told me that they had no one in their church who was divorced. She told me they were kicking them out! Above all, I felt rejected by God! Where was he? Didn’t he love me anymore? Was he also angry and ashamed of me? I got tired of waking up every day. Not only was I separated from my husband, but even worse, I felt separated from God! I started to spend less time in the Word. I felt like I was scrambling up a hill and never being able to reach the top. I had a huge tidal wave of pain and was drowning in my grief. Even in sunny days, I felt the strangeness and coldness of darkness in my mind. The evil flourished and my emotions remained in the closet of my heart. Maybe it describes you or someone close to you.
When I got involved in a Christian singles group, I saw so much pain and suffering in many men and women who were going through separations or had already been divorced. Some of these people were driven out of their churches. It broke my heart to hear how their pastor and congregation members spoke words of judgment and criticism or gossiped about them and shunned them.
But… One day the Holy Spirit reminded me of my judgmental thoughts before I got divorced. I couldn’t understand how a Christian couple could be divorced when they were so active in church every week and looked like the perfect family. You see, I didn’t have a knack for understanding until I went through the divorce myself. You’re probably wondering why I call it the gift of understanding?
One day I was standing at my kitchen sink washing the dishes. I was talking to the Lord about the jealousy I felt toward the other woman in my husband’s life. I heard the Holy Spirit say, “Separate the sin from the person. Look at her through my eyes. I love her as much as I love you!” I will never forget how I cried and was brought to my knees and humiliated. I realized the unconditional love our Father has for us even when we are in sin.
Look for me [thoroughly], O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there is in me any evil or harmful way, and lead me in the eternal way. (Psalm 139:23-24)
I began to invite God to search my heart and mind. I wanted the Holy Spirit to reveal all that was hidden and lead me on the path He had chosen for me. I completely surrendered my life to Him!
When I started attending Holy Spirit classes daily, He began to teach me things I had never known. He started rooting out unforgiveness, bitterness, jealousy, rejection, resentment, fear, worry and so on. He would bring his revelatory light to those areas of my heart and mind that would cause me to lay them at the feet of Jesus. I learned that it was a process, but by continuing day after day to allow him to probe my heart, I could feel more of his healing light within me. I began not only to know him, but to have a relationship with our Father. Our hearts were beginning to connect.
Someone once asked me how long this process would take. I can tell you that God is still working on me and will continue until he brings me home to live with him forever! Satan always tries to pull us back into our past rejections when someone rejects us. Our Father never forsakes us, no matter what we have done or failed to do.
James 4:7 says, “Submit to God, resist the devil and he will flee.”
Notice the first part is submission to God…then He helps you resist the devil and satan flees.
So… do you need your mind, will, and emotions healed? Bend down in the presence of God, count on his support and he will give you his divine inspiration! Give all the weight of your burdens to our Father and He will support you with His love, peace and joy! He is waiting for you now! God loves you and so do we!
Jenny Hagemeyer is the pastor of the Upper Room Worship Center Coffee Church in Belleville. She is an inspirational teacher and author of “Touch Me” bible study and his latest book, “Lessons from Danny.” You can listen to Sunday’s posts on the Jenny’s and Upper Room facebook page or on the Anchor podcast.